I believe it has been now 9 months since the last time I actually entered a fighting game tournament. I’ve attended some to watch, but I was not really comfortable playing at all. I guess one of the things I lost in some of this self-recreation of myself is that I sort of lost why I play in the beginning.
It’s not like eleven years ago where I wanted to crush things big time in fighters. I believe that year five into playing, I wanted to create things. I wanted to study, and understand why people made the decisions they did, and how those very decisions in a split second could cost you a match.
Now, I look on the main discussion forum, and I see how people talk about the games I play in a way where if you aren’t playing on a stream, beating the 10-15 big players who place in all of the big tournaments, you are pretty much irrelevant. It kind of sucks, because a lot of insight and beliefs get dismissed and thrown to the side because it isn’t “stream practical” as I like to call it.
I went on a crusade for a short time a few months ago with my main character in Street Fighter 4 which is Yun. I kept seeing that there are people still out there using outdated techniques with him, so I decided to go and create new things. Things where, no one has seen before. Then, I started up a discussion with my findings, and now that is flourishing even though I have not shared anything in a bit (I should get back on it though).
It’s this camaraderie that I don’t see from people these days. I see more people tear people down in today’s games than to try to take a game and make it as fun or as broken as possible. More over, I think that with the option to patch games now, it seems pointless to really let a game just play out for a while. You can just complain and complain and POOF! Whatever you just complained about, just got either eradicated or nerfed. It’s kind of shameful.
As for me, I jump back into the fray of fighting game tournaments next weekend with a small tournament on the other side of town. I don’t really care if I win anymore. I guess if you’re eleven years in, you just feel differently about things. Perhaps, it is just me however. I just want to create honestly in fighters. So, I’ll just have fun.
Well, that, and to commentate, I really like commentating on games now. But we will see.