I haven’t written in awhile, but I wanted to share this excerpt from Facebook that I posted. I hope you all enjoy.
I’m going to go out on a limb with what I am about to say.
As someone who’s life has been affected with a mental illness, and has made great strides in living with it, I made a huge distinction the other day.
I remember during my worst depression cycle of this year back in April, I remember saying that everyone doesn’t recover from mental illness. Now, I was in a cycle that was like a serious black hole of despair for a good bit. I got fed up, which incidentally that led to the meteoric breakthroughs that lead me to tonight.
I actually am going to now explain what I couldn’t back then. This is something that, perhaps we all know about in one way or another in our lives, but it is something that is a recurring factor with anyone who struggles with mental illness.
It has to do with time. Mental illness impairs one’s ability to think in a myriad of ways. Therefore, it takes time away from someone. Those outbursts, the disorganized speech, those mood swings, that anxiety, they keep a person from producing in the real world, destroying relationships and property in the process.
Then, if things get severe enough, one goes to the hospitals, the prisons and what not. Losing more time because they did something that in the court of public opinion, they are monsters. Then they lose time from being in those facilities, and even more should they get out because the world is DRASTICALLY different to them.
Then comes the part where one has to make sense of all this, which costs them more time because coming back into the real world, they aren’t equipped with the capabilities to even function in this world that has changed so much. Poor comprehension, communication, and less opportunities are available to them. Most are stuck for a long time.
Some, no, most stay stuck. People with serious mental illness die 14 to 32 years younger than the general population. Take a look at what I just wrote again. Don’t you think, that it is a lot of time gone by the impact of mental illness on one’s life? I don’t mean years either. I MEAN DECADES OF A PERSON’S LIFE IS TAKEN AWAY BY MENTAL ILLNESS ON AVERAGE.
That is why it is that serious. Some people really are not strong enough to go through all that and come out stronger than they were before. My favorite author Haruki Murakami said, “And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”
What I’m saying to you all who read this, is that not everyone is going to come out of that storm stronger. Some just kind of give up in a sense. Some people run from the storm of losing all that time and end up losing even more time. Maybe I got lucky because I never want to settle.
I do realize by writing these words, it sounds like a complete contradiction to what I do every weekday. However, I do believe in these words, because it is someone like me who could write these words and understand the struggles of mental illness from someone who has taken that time.
And, because I understand this, I can maybe work on something to make sure people who suffer don’t lose anymore time, so this world can see a lot more beautiful minds.