This is a song that I stumbled upon listening to the American Top 40 today. It’s lyrics mirror the feelings that I share during this weekend’s happenings.
I did many corageous things. I kissed five girls by asking them three questions. I stood at the brink of one event severely crippling the social status that I built over the years. I drank like I was 23 again. I danced knowing that my foot was killing me. There’s many other things that I did.
However, I sit here today, reflecting on everything that happened to me this weekend. The weekend is bittersweet and has left me with a bad taste in my mouth. I learned to turn fear into strength, but it was a reminder to me to slow down. I did all of that stuff, and deep down I felt empty. Perhaps it’s because I’m still in a big turning point in my life.
But, the clue of courage, is something that I picked up this weekend. Courage, is something that I have lacked for all of my life. I’m always safe, and backing away from the moment. If I’m going to really acheive the amazing thing I really want to do, I have to be brave. I have to face whatever that is head on. No matter what I feel like that is, I will stand firm from here on in.